down with cold

Hi :(
Feels like my whole world is experincing a gear shift as everything seems to be shaky. I have been down with acute coryza or more commonly known as common cold for last two days, and trust me this is the worst disease of the world. Its so bad that till now there is no concrete medication plan for it. In terms of statistics it comes first overcoming AIDS , Cancer and many other deadly dieseases.

Its so bad that everyday it accounts for many man hours lost all over the world .

There is also a whole website dedicated to it in case if someone of you wants to know more about it.

http://www.commoncold.org.

As far as my cold goes i think i will go back home now and can do with a good herbal tea .

hail sneezers,

bbye

UR TOMORROW WITHOUT ME...

I promise u no tomorrow ,

but today will always last.

n' since each day is the same,

there is no longing for the past.

when tomorrow starts without me,

n' i am not there to see,

sun should rise and,

find ur eyes, all filled with

tears for me...

Do not think that we are far apart.

for everytime u think of me,

i am right there in ur heart.

I will be listening to every whisper of urs,

and mine eyes will be filled,

from the tears of urs.

Ur every beat will be felt right inside me,

asif its my heart beating inside o urs.

When tomorrow will start without me,

don't even think u are without me.

coz till now i was walking with u,

but now, i am living inside u.

ur every decision will be backened by me,

and whenever ur heart skips a beat,

it will be me not satisfied with me.

So when tomorrow starts without me,

don't feel lonely without me,

just close ur eyes n' try to feel me,

I WILL BE INSIDE U,

TALKING TO ME. . .

Getting techie :)

So, my worst fear came true. my client removed me from my only project on which i was working giving the reason that he dont see any value add from my part. now can anyone let me know how can you be doing the value add when you are not even allowed breathing space to think something different and when its the client who is the sailor and we are just the working crew who are supposed to know only two words "aye sir".

Anyways so now as am sitting idle i thought of doing something for which i was trying to find out time but was not able to.

I started fiddling around with Android.

Android is a new mobile OS stack launched by Google with its partnership with a new company also named as Android . I hope i have got the facts right here.

Its supposed to be open source and the next best thing which could have happened to the mobile device develpoment.

so, as mobiles are what are giving me bread and butter and google is what i think is my alma meter i thought why not give it a look . and here is what my first impressions says about it.

Android is here to stay. It seems to have everything which me as a developer would like to have in a mobile OS. It is open source if you know what it mean, it treats all the applications no matter whether they are system applications or the third party applications equal. It has got its own security sand box model which will never allow you to do fishy things with the system even on being treated egqual to system applications.

Android seems to have incorporated a lot of things from the wide number of mobile OS available in the market. It has taken all the good things of them , have put some good things of its own , and has still left it open for further improovement.

what else would you want from google. The sdk support from googel itself is great. the only thing which i found quite irritating is the kind of documentation they have done.

As the development for android is done in java, and java is the most widely used language nowdays so everyone is under impression that developing for android would be a cake walk. but its not so. Because on the very first hand they have introduced so many new apis that one get boggled by the way applications are getting created in it. they have also drifted away from the traditional way of coding in java which i found quite complex at first glance but as i started getting hang of it i came to a conclusion that they have done it for the better.

Designing UI is what seems to be the biggest challange for all mobile developers till now , and on this front all points goes to the Android. Their XML layout based approach is going to sweep the market like anything.

Switching of displays is also very easy in it as you just have to change the layout and its done.

The look and feel of UI and the way events are handled in it is awesome . Also its going to give IPHONE a run for its money in the way applicaitons come and go. it seems so seemless.

So this was my first feel of Android not much techie just an overview. will be discussing it more in coming days . here are few pics of what i developed.

kodac moments

last weekend was a bit different for me. as u see few of my very good chums were in town so on firiday we decided to meet.
I dont know why but now i feel a bit awkward in seeing all these friends which at some instant of life were people with whom i used to spend whole day. may be its the distance and snail mail kind of converstation which we do now. but on the other hand i do get goosebumps also when am seeing these people after ages. i just keep noticing out how they have changed and why they have changed.
This friday was no different. we decided to meet in noida where its getting overcrowded by new shopping complexes and malls which seems to be mushrooming everywhere.
When i started from office i really didnt know what i would be doing there despite the fact that in the friends who were to be there there was to be my hot sis ( i really sometime wish why she has to be my sis, but she is the best i can ask as a sis) disha , my old baddy and many other offline thingies partner(dont get ur mind racing) ankur, and the stupid idiot and good for nothing but still a good friend neeraj. but still was getting perplexed.

finally when i reached there and saw them man i cannot tell u how i wished god why cant we be seing each other more often then that.

i was seeing preeti and saddy after their marriage for first time and do they look great together. i can put a blind bet on it. they both were quite angry with me as i was not able to be on their marriage. then seeing dish has always made me feel good as she is the only person who can be good as sis , understanding as friend, hot as gf, naughty as girl at the same time. ankur as usual was quite aloof as he has become like this after getting into army.

neeraj is a person which is really becoming pain for me and i think for others also. we never expected that he would change to this degree, but as coming from me , i was the pioneer of saying to others that change is the only thing which is consistent. but i still mis that old friend neelu of mine.

we did spent some quality time and call from vandu (she is a kind of friend which one find lucky to have) made it more special.

but what i also noticed that even if we were meeting as old friends we can still discuss the new things over there. for example the ever going issue of neeraj and his to be better half not being ablee to come together issue. or the issue of disha changing job after her degree. And the issue of why ankur has become so aloof and he and we both have to be a bit understanding as now we have different backgrounds and so should not see each other with the pair of eyes with which we see our collegues.

in nutshell that was great time and if one wish can be granted to me i would have wished for my old college days to come back agian.

Atleast at that time i still used to do a bit of bird watch which has become a luxuary now . lol

empty minds devil place

for last few days am getting a bit restless. I myself and my friends ,both observed this change and it forced me to think over it . The conclusion on which i reached was that as i was not doing any kind of productive work and due to some issues in my life which contracdict my logical think ( am really proud of my logical thinking which do sometime leads me into quite unfavourable situations).

i was not doing any productive work coz i was testing what i have developed till far and am not that good tester neither i like testing. Also am of opinion that a chef should never taste and judge the dish which he has cooked. No matter how fair and open minded he happens to be he will get partial to his creation. thats basic nature of human. it sees no fault in himself. It can often led u into quite embarassing situations and something like this i went through.

Also i believe in doing something new everyday. I cant get stuck to one simple routine which also was the reason of my restlessness .
Am also getting the feeling that maybe the place where am working is not quite happy with my work and i fail to understand why when they are not giving me any good work. what ever they haave given me till date i have delivered it and i think i delivered it optimally seeing the situations in which it was delivered. but alas u can never be sure till u get that right from the horses mouth so am waiting for the verdict.

But what i feel quite awkward in last few days was why cant people be sure of what they want from you. And when there are mis communications in between why they loose temper . any way lets not get deep into it coz it will not be that fun and will do no good.

so the crux of all this is i should try to evade my boredom and should start working on something productive. so thats what am trying to do.

A new day has come

So here i start a new day after a nice boring weekend and loosing 5 kilos of weight . wow that sounds great. First mail i saw today was from my TL and he was not able to post his comments to my blog as i havent cleared the settings for non googlers to post their comments.

So that means i am starting to have some people wo would be reading my posts and would be making all those assumptions which i talked bout prev. Along with this i also feel like googlers are an identity of their own. this google nation if i may be allowed to say is a very young nation but very soon if it grows at the same pace it will become one of the largest democracy of this world and along with which a democracy where polticians are not corrupt for a change, a democracy which will never bear the costs of polls as there will be none and anyone can be national of this country. Sounds great if US happens to hear this he might stop giving all those allownces to google which he always stops if someone goes even a inch against him(lol).

Anyway but the point which i want to put accross is that google certainly has made a point that to be big and great you dont need to be in good eyes of those who are rich and influential.

And more better would be to become big u might not even need a very big and great idea. Its the small practical things which count. And also u need to have a faith in what you are doing. You really need to be practical to ur toe nail and have to think out ofbox almost all the time.

May be thats the answer to my question which was why people work in startups and why dont they join govt jobs when they are always cribbing about private jobs and the work hours they spent in it.

I myself crib but i know that this is something which i love to do. This is something without which i might not even be ableto live my life.

Anyways , so much for google.........

Am happy for loosing my 5 kilos of extra weiht but doc says i still need to give up 5 more. Lets see if google has any new way to loose weight.

working in a startup company

working in a startup company is not that easy as it seems to be. Just imagine working in a company which is a startup and is having few clients which themselves are startups and are product based.
so you can imagine the chaos it creates. At the same instant of time you are the lover of the project yo are working on and at that very instant you are the critic also as there are no laid down rules of the good and bad in the startup world. If einstein happens to be reading this blog he would have died again as all his fundas of time and relativety goes down the drain.

But its fun and challenging also. You get to learn a lot of things which you can never imagine in a big league company.

In which company wouldyou happen to see your mentor sitting with you and trying to fix tthe bugs you have created.(trust me 70% of bugs reported by any client are the ones which a developer have created knowingly).

But it do take toll on ur personal life . your family starts treating u as a guest as u only go there to sleep and eat. and if u happen to be a newly wed or have a girlfriend to maintain may lord save u.

sometimes i think why dont we people go for govt jobs where one can sit and rest assured for whole life and can grow a pounch and can maintain it also.
I still dont have answer for it.

so another day starts for me with another routine bug fixing and creating some more in the process .....lol

what am i supposed to do

Am not at all accustomed to this blogging world and dont even know why people spill out there lives on these public pages where everyone can see it , read it and can form a image and perception about you in their minds. But maybe it is this excitement or may i say the risk of getting noticed by someone to whom u are related in no terms tend to attract people to blog.

Am Prabhakar Sharma going to be 25 this september , born virgo and working as Technical Lead(ya its a big post as the name says but trust me the work is same as of developer) for a new startup but growing software industry.

Last few years of my life have been full of so much turnmoils that i myself dont know which way am i heading to.

I did my schooling from science side with major in computers, finished graduation from Delhi university in Electronics hons. , then went for PG in computers from symbiosis. That in nutshell means 12 + 3 + 2 years of non stop study and no implementation.

Am a kind of person that does not believe in theories until they have not been fully tested by me, may be thats why i took computers coz every thing is so practical here. may be thats the reason why i dint fare well in my electronics hons coz it was full of so much theories, or may be i spent a bit too much time in the badminton court . lol. any ways then i join one of the small company as i graduated from symbiosis and work there like a king . god those were the days. may be they wre paying me thepeanuts or to be specific the rotten peanuts but i was so ull of youth at that time. nothing could have changedthe bang the world attitude in me. at one point of time i even thought buying out the company i was working for.(gee if my prev collegues happen to see this??).

I was working full time side by side i was doing some freelancing work alongwith not to say was trying to clear out my 18 backlog papers which i got as a grace from my course co-ordinator for not following his rub my back policy.

Worked there for around one year and then i headed back to my home sweet home. god did i missed my guys. u bet i sure did. but within few days i got frustated of sitting idel and joined daksh IBM. ya i know the call centre . that was a nice change actually . i got to know the other side of this call centre world and i have really started respecting those guys. they are as much proffessional in their jobs as any one of us.

I again workde there for around 8 months then joined a different company , worked there for 6 months and then landed up here. so as u can see in around 2 years i have changed 3 companies switched two places and not to talk about the profiles i have been working on.

And still i dont know what am i heading for or to be precise want i want from my life.

these were some loose thoughts i thought of jotting down here so that i can keep a track on them.

but as the tongue twister says :

"I thought , I thought a thought. But the thought i thought, was not the thought i thought, i thought."

so this was actually not what i will be talking about here...but for now its bye time